Monday, March 28, 2005

another week has passed..time seems to fly..very soon, april will say hi to us and we'll say bye to march..E**** coming...damn!i can't wait to see the end of it all...accounting tutorial today was ermmz...crap!!dieee.....feel like i m lagging terribly...y does an accountant-to-be take three years to study four damn statements!!jus had FM quiz today..seems like the whole world has gotten their results except a selected or should i say,suay few..n this special group happens to include yours truly...its a super duper high average..i will be lying if i said i wasn't thinking abt how i would fare...
*fingers crossed* jus hoping i do above the average...

posted by Boring old me @ 3/28/2005 08:27:00 PM 0 comments

Tuesday, March 22, 2005

NIGHTMARE ON A TUESDAY AFTERNOON
he was so wrong...so so wrong...he thought that life would improve.seriously he thought and felt that way.but to his greatest horror, things just seem to have taken for the worse. words that shouldn't have been said were uttered and stood out just like a sore thumb. the greatest ever nightmare has just begun. As those dreaded words were said. shock filled the air as everything was calm. there was no quarrel just like the calm waters of a reservoir. Like a bomb that had been dropped over Iraq by Uncle Sam, it left a scene of devastation for the following 45mins. A defendant was giving his appeal to the court only to repeatedly hear it being overturned.
As he regretfully left the place after much persuasion and hesitation in his car as he awaited out there hoping to catch another look of her, her mother soon came into view. he had no choice but to take his leave for fear that she may probe further. this was a place that had grown so familiar in the past months, the feeling was a blur. he seemed to have stumbled into the aftermath of the devastation, where there were people weeping over the corpses only this time there were no one else crying but present was a huge tear in his heart.
he drove out slowly. catching the familiar sights- the playground in which they had nuggets just the evening before, the new houses that were just built and even the many L-plate cars that were in the vicinity all were in full force. was he ever going to return to this place ever again? he hit the main road, slowly he picked up speed. his mind was a blur. like a whirlwind or if u prefer, a tsunami has ravaged through it. all he wanted to do was to reach home.fast. he sped.like nobody's business. he just didn't care anymore. Andrew Chow's Zouk CD was blasted loudly as speeds of 120km/h were reached. all he wanted was the comfort of his home, a place that he feels most protected. he is still without dinner as whatever appetite that he had was soon gone. thank god, he made it home safe and sound abeit after several honks were sounded at him for remaining stationary at the turn of the green light. he saw the motherly figure of his mum. he wanted to hug her so much to seek some solace from after such an afternoon that he gone through but she was on the phone so greetings were just exchanged. he got up to his room. washed up and decided to pour out his feelings to the computer here. he simply have got no mood for anything. Sleep is the best form of therapy as it is only in our sleep, that we escape from the realities of life. will things ever get better?

To be continued...

posted by Boring old me @ 3/22/2005 08:07:00 PM 0 comments

Monday, March 21, 2005

FATIGUE
As he drove hm at the end of the day,he was so tired he could just sleep on the wheel. The usual peak hour bottle neck only got on his nerves.further.cars moving at snail's pace on the right most lane causing the whole place to come to a standstill. he must have thought he was going to just fall asleep. it had been a long day. school is tough and life is well,ermmz tougher. Familiar sounds from Perfect 10 was playing in the background. "hehe" thats what he thought. at least the music was good and helped soothed his nerves. he decided to zip in and out of the lanes. he got home and got a earful from his mother for not shutting the door after him. a scolding for the slightest thing at the end of a long day?not something that most of us look forward to. Bucketful of work to catch up before the dreaded 15th Apr arrives with no signs of improving along with the failure to follow the lessons for esp AA101 only adds to his fast-fading enthusiasm. "Life is bad" thats what he thought. He was...wrong...IS optimistic. "Life can only get better" he muses. yes, morning stats lecture at 0830hrs isn't the best continuation of the story.
BUT...BUT...it will improve.and in the meantime, he will seek solace from familiar sources, find joy in little things in life, enjoy the moments that await and reminisce about those that has passed...cause thats Living life to the fullest is all about...

To be continued... ...

posted by Boring old me @ 3/21/2005 06:46:00 PM 0 comments

Thursday, March 17, 2005

I guess no one gave us much of a chance
when we first started off 3months back.
On that very day,
when hands joined,
hearts became in unison,
and started to beat as one.
life continues to look rosy,
as we walk along this path together,
Happy 3rd Month!

posted by Boring old me @ 3/17/2005 12:22:00 AM 0 comments

Wednesday, March 16, 2005

its 2+ in e morning.not feeling too great abt life at the moment w the quizzes and presentation.stress mounting so here goes...
"Welcome To My Life"
Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna runaway?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurtTo feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
No one ever lied straight to your face
No one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
Never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life

posted by Boring old me @ 3/16/2005 02:35:00 AM 0 comments

Wednesday, March 09, 2005

sch has never seemed so sucky before.
jus had my GE practical exam.
dunno why but i seem to buckle under the stress.
the watchful eyes of my fellow classmates and the apparent lack of slp caused me to mess up.
i m not creating excuses but
lets hope i stil do enough to clear this.
feel relli tired.drained.physically,i m a walking zombie.
yest was bad.super tiring...did proj all e way til 8+.its not tt bad since its with e great friends tt i have made but it sure was tiring leaving sch when the sun has long set.1 big consolation was catching HITCH with dear at 9+.real beautiful end to the day.very thankful for the presence of her to cheer me up by doing sth relaxing.finished the chado assignment when i got hm n slept at almost 2+.woke up @ 330 to catch Milan V Man U only to witness a gd match but having a disappointing result.
couldn't concentrate much jus now.only thinking of my bed.stats to do for tmr.acct presentation next mon,stats n acct quiz on thur.mkting presentation on thur.next wk doesn't seem good n i dun think it will change my mindset tt sch sucks.suddenly,the much awaited weekend break doesn't seem tt appetising.
hopefully,all this will improve.
i know it will.
but hope it will be soon.

posted by Boring old me @ 3/09/2005 01:00:00 PM 0 comments