Welcome To My Life

back to sch on a rainy thur morn...the gloomy n dim surroundings around represent my mood at present...the dark clouds in the distance only serve to remind me of the sad story i heard ytd...i din slp well at all..thank god that i haf so many friends who were willing to here me out..Angelia and Nik,if u gals r reading this,i thank u...i relli appreciate ur being there..thanks..u've made me feel alot betta...my heart only yearns to see one person...my head tells me to give it a rest...someone tell me,should i follow my heart or head?? i say, if only memories were like a whiteboard...can be erased whenever one feels like it...

guess i din get enough slp last nite..slept at almost 2+ and woke up at 6.30am...was driving damm dangerously...having difficulty switching lanes...dunno y but wasn't feeling alert at all...got honked at too..haven had the feeling of being honked at for a long time liaoz....mum n dad,i m sorry the journey wasn't very smooth..had to hit the brakes hard a few times...ur dear son is not in the mood..now,how do i feel now??should i behave like normal before her??should i clarify things w her??

i dunno...i relli dunno...i m just l05t...l05t in this little fantasy of mine..now i haf to find my way out of this horrible nightmare...its been simply hurting from the moment i heard it...the people walking around in school only serves to tell me that life still has got to go on as time will not stop for me to heal my wounds...tutorials n lectures still go on...exams will b here b4 i know it...i gotta wake up n start catching up on whatever i m lagging in...haii...

gRanted all that, but i m a brave man..a sTrong man s i'll like to think myself as...i know i m better equipped to deal with such setbacks..

i'll like to think it positively...may b she din tell jas the truth??may b jas had caught her in a wrong mood??

of course all this could b true...but we've to face up to reality n i m prepared to accept the truth...

jac,i know u wun get to see this...but if i could pluck up the courage,this is what i would tell u...

i accept whatever decision u make..i mean what i say n i dun say things for the sake of saying...its been indeed fun being w u the last few wks..the laughter i get when we meet...the crap we speak....n everything...i thank u for everything u've given me this few wks..i've indeed been a very happy boy ever since the 8th of Sept when i got to know u at JP...i m afraid we may had our last date already bcoz at the end of the day,i m very sorry i've fallen for u...

i m not being noble...but if u feel that ur life was better off b4 knowing me, then i m prepared to step back n out of ur life...lead a happy life n be a cheerful gal...

wishing u nothing but the very best~~

posted by Boring old me @ 9/30/2004 09:35:00 AM 0 comments

been a pretty bad staaarrtt to the wk so far...relli hope it gets betta...if stories that i've heard r correct,i m jus being led on by jac..i relli dunno y...the story that jas has told me...i dunno y she says she's jus being normal..does she feed all the guys she go out w??n the allegations that jas can testify to...like i m not sticky...hey,hello,i dun specially go over to ur hall to look for u lorz!!thats alittle unjust if u say it this way..oh gosh...nothing can make me feel worse anymore..to think the past 3wks have all been but a facade...have i been played??the feeling doesn't feel good definitely...sometimes things won't turn out the way we want it to be..but isn't this right out of the script for the horror movie of the yr??this is turning out to be my worst nightmare..someone help me!!to think i was such a sweetie to her...no wonder they say "gd guys always finish last"

i m in a very sad mood at the moment..nothing can cheer me up..i dread going to sch tmr...now i understand how eye candy feels...is it retribution??only jac will know y she is doing all this to me...i should have been warned that she's not that simple....time will tell what she is really thinking...in the mean time,i can only wait in pain....haii....n double *sigh*

posted by Boring old me @ 9/29/2004 08:04:00 PM 0 comments

lazy lazy day..its fri n i m blogging this jus b4 gng to mit hui...hM...tonite's gonna b a surprise....i m gng rouge...heh,jac's hall bash..told her i wun b gng but last min cfmed that i'll b gng w ber n the rest of the guys...hah....
i m lazy..haven relli been studying lately...jus doing tutorials n stuff...out of 4 sch days this wk,i drove 3 times...hahaz...been seeing lots of jac recently...thou din catch her for a meal or anything this wk..she's jus too busy...but will b meeting her for dinner tmr...hopefully it will b enjoyable..kk,will blog again soon...gotta rush if not will b late to mit hui...cyaz blog~~

posted by Boring old me @ 9/24/2004 03:13:00 PM 0 comments

sunday now...din go out at all today...spent my afternoon playing my PS2..its a wonder how i never get sick n tired of the game Winning Eleven...hM...yeah...talked to jac on the phone for awhile...notti gal she is,she was out even thou she hasn't done any work yet..well,she has an essay due tmr and a test on mon n tue each..wow..admire a slackness but def not one that i'll follow..
a brief recap on my wk..was a relli gd wk..a gd way to spend the hols..
tue: slacked at hm..read biz law for the first part of the afternoon..went to marche mit the class for dinner in e evening..funny wad i did to avoid paying the ERP charge..i could see the gantry in a dist at abt 6.55pm,abt 70m away..oh shit i tot..for those goons out there who dusen know,ERP stops at 7pm..so i did a sensible thing,i made a turn into a small rd n waited till it was safe to go out..met the class at abt 7.45pm..was a pretty gd dinner..talked to pple like yuan li and emily..pple i dun normally talk to in class..after which chilled at rocky master w some of them..i nv knew curfews still existed today..most of them had to b hm early so we left abt 1115pm..sent angelia hm n pple like limin,andrew and emily to kallang MRT..hehe..all in all, a pretty gd nite..
wed: met jac at boon lay MRT..funny coz i tot derrick's class was ard 12 so i offered to mit her all the way at boon lay..when i woke up,i realised derrick had alr left..i din wan to wake jac up so i took the MRT all e way to boon lay..heh...after rushing out of the hse,the gal was abt 35mins late..hahz..gals n their lateness.. =P
yeah..so we went over to town,had lunch at coffee club..gd lunch..had the garlic prawn pasta..slurpppp...fed her her teriyaki chicken sandwich which she did the same to me..gd stuff manz...took some fotos too..ask me for it if u happen to know me..i wun upload it here for privacy's sake..
went to sch after that..discussed biz law w liying..was pleased to come out w a few impt points for the assignment..after that went canteen 13 mit jas for dinner..found jac in her rm after that..accompanied her for awhile b4 she had to leave for meeting.stayed alone in her rm..so glad she trusts me.. yay!
sent her in a cab to orchd after that..she was gng to club at zouk but went to chinablack to get free booze..pray she dusen turn out a clubber like N..went hm after that..
thur: woke up w a headache..lack of slp..caught man u n lyon on tv..gd fight back by the devils..hopefully this sparks their season..
drove dad n mum to MRT station followed by kenneth to sch..came hm to slack after that..picked jac up n both went to sch later ard noon time..did IT proj..turning qte difficult..went look for jac after that..sent her to town for her meeting w UAN..later to AMK for her facial..she squeezed in some time to have a short meal w me..quite happy w that..
fri: was thinking abt meeting hui but nik msged in the morn asking to go shopping in the afternoon..she asked me to go to a BBQ after that..heh..a stupid jam on the expressway meant that poor nik was alone for almost an hr..so bad of me yah??
after that had dinner at food court..was relli pleased coz i had relli spent lots of $$ this wk..
shopped at bugis village till almost 1015pm b4 gng all the way to Pasir Ris..Aloha chalet..jolly gd place for a lot of pple..damm bloody huge..the irony is it was my former company chalet..gd cohesion stuff..saw Cpt Choo n MSG joseph n the rest of the PCs..long time nv see them..pleased to see them but din know wad to talk...sent nik hm after that..
sat: met jac in the evening for movie followed by dinner..The Terminal..def full of laughter..but alittle draggy at the end..hM..can say it was worth the money thou..jac din seem to enjoy the show lehz..hahz..brought her to esplanade after that..had thai express..not very ex..next time got more $ to spend then bring u to al dente k??hahaz...sat down by the sea n watch some band perform after that..din stay long thou..sent her hm soon after..even walked her to the lift lobby at her floor..hopefully one day,i will b able to walk into her hse..i pray that day will come for i think i really do like her..
gonna do some more econs b4 turning in..quite a gd wk s it was full of activities..update again soon!

posted by Boring old me @ 9/19/2004 09:45:00 PM 0 comments

n yupz...its official....i've a new interest n her name's jacqueline....jac for short....this is the first time that i m writing here on my new interest...she's really interesting n cute...not ur average beauty but i like the look of her all the same..hehe...beauty's in the eyes of e beholder isn't it?had dinner n watched movie w her 2day...harold n kumar goes to white castle...not worth the typical wkend rate but heh,since we caught it 2day,guess mebe it would b worth the $6.50....lots of laughs n alittle nudity here n there...one scene caught my attention was when the hot wife told the 2 guys 2 f**k her n harold removed her top....definitely not for the eyes of the young n hence the M18 rating...hey,but dun i look 18 n above?how come i still get checked??weird...sent jac home on the MRT after that...been a long time since i bothered to walk someone hm w/o my car....impressed w myself...she told me we could mit for lunch on wed...wow...thats sth worth looking 4ward to....
haha...gonna slp soon so hopefully will b able to blog more gd news real soon!

posted by Boring old me @ 9/14/2004 01:13:00 AM 0 comments

heh...here's an update....had dinner w jac at chinajump last nite....had an enjoyable time even thou the bill came up to quite alot...could tell she liked the ambience of the place....my interest in her is growing wor....hahah....was to haf gone w her n her fren to new asia bar...so stupid...kenna stopped at the door due to the age limit for guys...didn't wan to disappoint her so i left w/o saying much....went back to catch the 2nd half of man u v bolton...was terrible the way i saw it....v nistlerooy n rooney....pls return asap....WE NEED U at ur best b4 the lads from arsenal win the league by Xmas....gonna call jac later...can really say i miss talking to her...she can really carry a conversation well...update again soon manz...... =p

posted by Boring old me @ 9/12/2004 05:57:00 PM 0 comments