Welcome To My Life

back to sch on a rainy thur morn...the gloomy n dim surroundings around represent my mood at present...the dark clouds in the distance only serve to remind me of the sad story i heard ytd...i din slp well at all..thank god that i haf so many friends who were willing to here me out..Angelia and Nik,if u gals r reading this,i thank u...i relli appreciate ur being there..thanks..u've made me feel alot betta...my heart only yearns to see one person...my head tells me to give it a rest...someone tell me,should i follow my heart or head?? i say, if only memories were like a whiteboard...can be erased whenever one feels like it...

guess i din get enough slp last nite..slept at almost 2+ and woke up at 6.30am...was driving damm dangerously...having difficulty switching lanes...dunno y but wasn't feeling alert at all...got honked at too..haven had the feeling of being honked at for a long time liaoz....mum n dad,i m sorry the journey wasn't very smooth..had to hit the brakes hard a few times...ur dear son is not in the mood..now,how do i feel now??should i behave like normal before her??should i clarify things w her??

i dunno...i relli dunno...i m just l05t...l05t in this little fantasy of mine..now i haf to find my way out of this horrible nightmare...its been simply hurting from the moment i heard it...the people walking around in school only serves to tell me that life still has got to go on as time will not stop for me to heal my wounds...tutorials n lectures still go on...exams will b here b4 i know it...i gotta wake up n start catching up on whatever i m lagging in...haii...

gRanted all that, but i m a brave man..a sTrong man s i'll like to think myself as...i know i m better equipped to deal with such setbacks..

i'll like to think it positively...may b she din tell jas the truth??may b jas had caught her in a wrong mood??

of course all this could b true...but we've to face up to reality n i m prepared to accept the truth...

jac,i know u wun get to see this...but if i could pluck up the courage,this is what i would tell u...

i accept whatever decision u make..i mean what i say n i dun say things for the sake of saying...its been indeed fun being w u the last few wks..the laughter i get when we meet...the crap we speak....n everything...i thank u for everything u've given me this few wks..i've indeed been a very happy boy ever since the 8th of Sept when i got to know u at JP...i m afraid we may had our last date already bcoz at the end of the day,i m very sorry i've fallen for u...

i m not being noble...but if u feel that ur life was better off b4 knowing me, then i m prepared to step back n out of ur life...lead a happy life n be a cheerful gal...

wishing u nothing but the very best~~

posted by Boring old me @ 9/30/2004 09:35:00 AM