i was in bed last night(strictly speaking this morn),
trying to get myself to slp.
then came the recall.
i seemed to have dreamt that HE was coming back for HER once before.
i put it off back then.
i told no one.
coz faith is an important word in a relationship that once was.
so much so that i felt so stupid after sending her to meet HIM.
faith?
or just plain foolishness?
i once told her.
losing her was my greatest fear.
she replied that i would never lose her.
now,lose and losing has turned into LOST.i hurt myself this morning.
to see if i still feel.
i focus on the pain.
because thats the only thing thats real in life.
sigh...how apt..sweet memories are all there to be treasured.like all relationships,we did have our unpleasant petty squabbles.but i told her and some others once,as long as the happy times outweigh the sad ones,i will still carry this relationship.
but it has gotten too heavy for my frail shoulders.
suddenly,i feel so weak.
so frail.just feel like disappearing.
The four months seemed to have flown by.So so fake.just like a sweet dream.
the feeling is like being woken up from a sweet dream
and u just want to relive the feeling.
OR
its like going through the worst nightmare
and you can't wait to wake up.
so whether u have a positive or negative outlook to life,
will depend on how u see it.
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