Welcome To My Life

While most of u r busy concentrating on your exams,let me break ur concentration by sharing w u a story.

a pretty cruel ending u might find it has.

the day started off rather badly.he woke up w a bad flu and started sneezing like crazy.shit!tts wad he thought.he should not have spent the night in e comforts of an aircon room.he realised he was damn late.he had to rush.so rush he did.

he reached sch to find her waiting for him. "i'll b meeting him later". tt was one of the first things she told him.he couldn't do anything.completely defenceless he jus nodded as he took out the newpaper he had in his bag.

later on,as he was reading the newpaper,he caught a glimpse of her hp.in it were some msgs tt he shudn't haf saw.curiousity got the better of him as he asked her abt it.

she denied everything and just said that they talked last night.he was disappointed,for he had msged her twice before he slept.

she jus pushed off everything tt he probed.not convinced,he continued.the little insensitive bugger in him just went on and on.she told him tt she loved him.so he jus assumed everything was ok.

later on,this stupid shit actually went to send her to meet him.gosh.don't laugh but he felt so stupid later.he did not know what was going to happen later so he tried reading his accounting in the comforts of Mcdonalds.after jus abt 40 mins of studying,he was still on pg 2 of the lecture notes.he was getting restless when his phone rang.it was a strange number but fairly familiar.he answered.his greatest nightmare was about to be realised.it was him.seemed like she did have something to tell him.he felt weird so he probed.n he found out something that he did not like hearing.she had made her decision to leave him.

he could not believe it.after all that she had told him.he called her straight and asked for an explanation.she said alot.and he just stood there.lost.he just could not believe it.so fast.so fast.no signs of this disaster either.she was or had already left him.he asked if he could send her home one last time.she did not even grant him this wish.he really craved to give her a big bear hug.however,under the watchful eyes of him,he could not.he knew he was defeated.he had lost his gal.he was sad.slowly he trudged off unwillingly to the lift lobby.thats when he knew what he wanted.he chased after her in the direction of the MRT.he reached the control station but no one was in sight.did he take too long?or how come she had just disappeared into thin air?he tried calling her.there was no response.unsatisfied,he ran up the escalators to the restaurants up there.he went into noodle hut,sakae sushi and subway hoping that she was there having her dinner.

finally he reached her.he needed to see her.so he took the train to dhoby ghaut.the short journey seemed like an eternity.when he finally saw her,it needed plenty of persuasion to finally convince her to let him send her home.

the journey home was a slow one.think of it,no exaggertation,he had never driven that slow in his whole life.not before listening to a load of bullshit from her mother.he hated her.wrong,still hating now.fcuking bitch who caused all this.all was still and would have been fine.

the journey home suddenly felt so short.he reached her place in not time.his heart just took him to all the little nooks and corners around.he saw the number 12 and the familiar blue pick-up.he reversed and saw the dog.he hated dogs.any animals.for her,he was willing to change.they went to the playgrounds.he sat on the swing.the bench.the slide.they had a long talk.he wasted alot of tissues too.so much that his contact lenses actually fell out.he felt possessed to be honest.he din know why he did certain things.

she had to leave.so he decided to face up to reality.he dropped her off,not without the promise that he would still be around when she needed him.she was special.with that,he went off.he stopped his car by the playground that was so familiar to him.it seemed just like yesterday that they were there having nuggets on the benches.he got out of the car.walked.his legs brought him back to her place.the curtains were drawn.but he knew she would be in the living room watching her show.he thought he saw the sillohette of her.the dog started to bark.darn dog.he had to leave.so he left.sat on the benches again refusing to leave the place.

time went by.at about midnight or thereabouts,he left.he drove to her place.one last time he thought.he peered at the gate.the wooden door was shut tight.she must have gone up.he really had hoped to see her or just the sillohette of her again.resigned to fate,he left for his car.he drove through the familiar stretch of road again.he stopped specially outside her gate,stepped on the accelerator and disappeared.

he needed to pee.but alas,he was going home when he saw something that made him change his route.he stopped at jln kayu.he sat at the seat they just sat on last friday.he ordered milo dino and satay.they finally had satay!he looked across the table but the seat was empty.he took a bite and then a few sips,footed the bill and left.he was sad.life is cruel.

in the car,his contact lenses came out again while he was rubbing his eyes.frustrated,he chucked it aside.he had better be careful with his driving.just one 'working' eye.he drove at snail's pace.

he finally got home.all was asleep except his bro.stupid.he asked him,"how come your eyes so red?" his mum woke up and saw.she shook her head and did not say much.she knew that her son was in pain.she gave him a pat on his back as he wrote this.he felt better.the warmth of his family.that really is still the most important.he needed that pat on the back.she had left.he had left the place.but she never left his heart.she infact,is still on his mind now.must be talking on the phone now.

what a night he had.he felt alone.not that he needed someone around.but he wanted her back.but she made her decision.and being the gentleman that he was,he was going to respect that.

he went to his box.retired the ring into it.he saw the movie ticket stubs.along with those he had in the wallet.13 he counted.1 was stupid.constantine-sat behind her just to catch the movie.the other was hitch-with her bro.

he realised that life was never going to be the same.

Life can be cruel.just when the hols was approaching.

We tend to take the people around us for granted.It is only after we lose something,do we actually realise it has been lost.I've already feeling the loss now.regret not taking enough pictures.

This promises to be a long night.and if u feel that all this isn't bad enough,accounting paper on wed and life just seems to get worse.

he saw the bear on this bed.hopefully,this bear will be enough company for him tonight.

just LOST.

waiting.

waiting.

waiting.

dunno what i m waiting for but just hope to hear the familiar handphone tune soon.

he isn't going to hear that because the decision had been made and he had already changed the tone to "Fixing a broken heart".

how long is this heart going to be fixed?its been a nightmare of catastrophic proportions.he really hopes to wake up and just realise that everything was just a dream.will there be a twist to this story and result in a happy ending for the male lead?or will it end in further tragedy?

-to be continued...

posted by Boring old me @ 4/19/2005 01:10:00 AM