Welcome To My Life

hi to whoever's reading out there...i m back again...i thought i could begin to lead a new life.guess it was about time too,what with the retests coming up in the very first week of jan,i certainly didn't have much time to think about such things.but each time i picked up my notes,my mind would drift off.this was too much for me to handle.i couldn't concentrate at all.not with all this on my mind i thought.its a pity my birthday came so soon after that fateful day.it was the 29th.i tried getting her to come out.what a difference a few days made.this was no longer the sweet,petite and thoughtful girl that i once knew.she had forgotten my birthday.or so she claimed.this was a blow.it was as if my heart smashed into pieces when i heard that.she was the only person i wanted to celebrate with.not my buddy.not my close friends.and not even my beloved family.i shut myself into my room.in total darkness.i tried drinking.you know,in the movies or serials,they call it drowning your sorrows?i tried that.but i could not.till now,i can't take beer.vodka,tequila or whisky anytime.hM...but certainly not beer.so i just turned on some music and lay on my bed,oblivious to the world.the next thing i knew,it was morning.my birthday had passed just like that.what the heck is a birthday if your beloved just left a few days before??
soon school reopened.the feeling was totally weird.there was no person to look forward to meeting just before assembly.no one to look to during breaks.and certainly no one to go out with after school.before the end of the first day,some of my friends and even her friends had asked me what was going on.such was the impact even though i was having my retest the whole day.i din know people actually observed that much.i admitted that we had ermm...broke up.i din want to give her any pressure so i pretended i din care much in her presence.but behind her back,i still cared.
the days came and went.it was soon valentine's day.i may not have mentioned earlier but i joined the school's soccer team precisely because of her.i wanted no comparison with her.she was the school's badminton captain.i needed to be somebody to match her.but thats not the point.i had prepared something for her on this special day.i had spent my nights,tired after all the trainings and studying in the earlier part of the night making it for her.this was to be my 2nd last gift ever to her.it was 365wire roses.this was yet another time i had made it for her.you the reader must be wondering why the number 365 right?there are 365 days in a year.each rose represented a day i spend thinking of her.ie to signify me thinking of her 365 days in a year.again you must be wondering how i came up with this gift.i had given to her a few times before and i could tell she really liked it very much.i tried asking her out for a meal that Vday.she still refused.she went out with another person.but thank goodness it was a girl instead....shall continue again later...don't go away wor...

posted by Boring old me @ 12/14/2003 08:57:00 PM